Monday, June 15, 2009
fuck.
Well, I'm blogging again. So much stuff going on - admittedly cool for the most part - won't forgive myself if I don't capture this story.
People will know I'm crazy, though. Or you might say I have my own take on reality. :(
If I get a girlfriend, what if she doesn't agree with my (professed) liberal attitudes toward sex? Used to think that anyone having sex out of wedlock was a godless hedonist, but maybe she doesn't even think porn is appropriate.
Which makes me wonder.. if I get a proper relationship in my life, will I be less interested in pornography? Or will that tension continue to exist?
I vote for the latter. It could be that unconscious guilt might be punishing me with inheriting the faults and embarrassments of my dad. How to approach that inner dialogue.. could be protracted. Or fascinatingly simple. Or both!
remember to write about the characters "old Shawn", "Donna Reed", "Marvin", "Cate Catherine" .. goddammit i will not lose these memories.
People will know I'm crazy, though. Or you might say I have my own take on reality. :(
If I get a girlfriend, what if she doesn't agree with my (professed) liberal attitudes toward sex? Used to think that anyone having sex out of wedlock was a godless hedonist, but maybe she doesn't even think porn is appropriate.
Which makes me wonder.. if I get a proper relationship in my life, will I be less interested in pornography? Or will that tension continue to exist?
I vote for the latter. It could be that unconscious guilt might be punishing me with inheriting the faults and embarrassments of my dad. How to approach that inner dialogue.. could be protracted. Or fascinatingly simple. Or both!
remember to write about the characters "old Shawn", "Donna Reed", "Marvin", "Cate Catherine" .. goddammit i will not lose these memories.
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